"Whole lot of mourning going on..."

A tiny bit of a better day today. Starting to mourn for my wonderful relationship with my friend again, though. I am so sad it had to end. I'm still trying to figure where I went wrong. I tried my best, as I usually try to, but I suspect my other "projects" (painting the house, managing the kids, living with that idiot of a wife, etc.) got in the way. I know the house and the wife distracted me, but I didn't think the distractions were that bad. I suppose too, that I wasn't being aggressive enough in getting ready to leave the wife. There just was no way to win, the way I see it. One (or two) wrong move(s), and everything gets interpreted incorrectly. Damn, that makes me sad.......